Bay Catfish Stew

catfish stewBack in the 1990s, one of my go-to winter recipes was “Cantonese Fish and Vegetable Soup” from Moosewood Restaurant Cooks at Home. It was my favorite way to eat catfish, which back then was a cheap fish. When I made it last year, however, I was really underwhelmed. Had I outgrown my Moosewood Cooks at Home? Was it going to take more than cornstarch dissolved in soy sauce and sesame oil to make me happy?

Today I was lured back to catfish with a deal at the local grocery store. I had no idea what I was going to do with it, but I knew it wouldn’t be Asian.

I have become a big skeptic, though, about “traditional” (i.e., European) spices. The recipes for Southern Catfish stews (and they were all Southern– in fact, I’ve encountered a huge bias against catfish here in the far North) called for corn and lima beans seasoned with mostly thyme and oregano. There wasn’t even garlic in these recipes. But I have to get over myself, because this was delicious!  I did a little adapting, exchanging roasted red pepper for green pepper, adding garlic and  potatoes and swapping Old Bay seasoning for ground mustard.

I am also grateful for the garden produce I still have: potatoes, canned tomatoes, a jar of roasted red peppers, and frozen corn. This stew turned out to be delightful. Fresh and flavorful– sending us both back to the stove for seconds.

Old Bay Catfish Stew

2 Tbs olive oil
1 medium onion, chopped
2 ribs celery, diced (you can use big pieces, but I’m not big on chunks of celery)
3-4 cloves garlic, chopped fine
2 Tbs roasted red pepper, chopped
1 tsp dried thyme
1/2 tsp dried oregano
1 tsp Old Bay seasoning
1/2 tsp hot sauce (to taste– this was sinus clearing but actually not too hot)
1 tsp salt and pepper
1/2 cup dry white wine
1 quart tomatoes, crushed
1 can chicken broth (or veggie if you’re keeping it closer to vegetarian)
2 cups sliced fingerling potatoes (you could substitute lima beans or other beans)
2 cups corn (frozen or sliced from the cob)
1.5-2 lbs catfish, cut into 1.5 inch pieces
parsley for garnish (optional)

In a dutch oven or large pot, heat the oil. Add the onion and celery and sauté 5 minutes until translucent. Add the garlic and sauté 2 minutes. Stir in the thyme, oregano, Old Bay, hot sauce, salt and pepper and deglaze with the wine. When nearly evaporated, add the tomatoes, broth and potatoes and simmer for 8-10 minutes. Add the corn and catfish and simmer 2-4 minutes, until the catfish is cooked through.

Serve plain or over rice.

Serves 4-6

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Driving around North Dakota



prairie NDI’ve been spending many hours writing a story set in northeastern North Dakota. I was here in late August at the height of the agricultural season, just as the harvest was beginning. I did the drives and learned the landscape– straight roads running alongside railroad tracks and a grain elevator and cluster of homes every eight miles or so.

But I wanted to see it in winter.

stop sign NDNot dangerous winter, but a little January “thaw” where it would be safe to drive for hours and still see the snowy plains. What I didn’t expect was the depth and beauty of the hoarfrost.

hoar frost

On the electric lines and on the metal gate at one of the small cemeteries and on the east side of every tree.

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I saw many beautiful things. I saw churches. Oddly, there was this blue door on a Lutheran Church in Michigan, ND…

blue church door nd

and then, one town west, this blue garage door on the Lutheran church in Lakota.

church blue garage door nd

It is cold. The first day it was 8 degrees, but really it felt below zero with the wind. A woman I sat with at lunch (grilled cheese at a bar and grill in Lakota, ND) said, “You can take a lot without the wind. But all we have been getting lately is wind.”

Truth is, it’s been a mild winter by any standard. Almost no snow. No weeks of extreme weather.

hoary elec lineBut today, when it was in the 20s “with 25 mph breezes from the southwest,” it felt every bit as cold as that 8-degree day. I didn’t think about going out into the little cemeteries without my hat.

cemetery NDToday I had lunch with a father and son who farm 3,000 acres. Just four men, two brothers and their sons, for all that acreage. They had the special, meatballs and potatoes– everyone had the special except me. I had grilled cheese. We were at a clean and friendly bar and grill in Climax, Minnesota, just across the Red River.

And in Reynolds, ND, they were still loading truck after truck with grain.

grain truck loading reynoldsloading grain ndI’ve transcribed my notes and downloaded my photos and even written a few new scenes.

Greetings from North Dakota!

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Elk Stew

jagerhaven fireplaceThis year at Christmas we went to a magical place called Jagerhaven. That’s German for “hunter’s haven,” and this place, as people like to say, “couldn’t be more Stearns county.” As you know if you read the blog, Stearns County is the bathtub madonna capital of the world. Very Catholic and Very German. Hunting is a big part of the culture.

Jagerhaven belongs to one of my brother-in-laws, Paul Becker, and his brothers. The property includes 15 deer stands, and I’ve seen the topological map to prove it. On hunting weekends they get up early and the master of ceremonies, complete with a gavel made out of a beer can, assigns the various stands. In the end, the family splits the large amount of venison they harvest each year.

You can’t get elk in Stearns County. For that you have to fly somewhere like Colorado or Montana. Paul went on an elk hunt this year and came back with the taxidermy head and a lot of meat. He shared some ground venison with me for a winter’s worth of chili, and also threw in a package of elk steak.

Here’s another thing I love about the blogosphere: the “game foodie blogs,” mostly from Wyoming, Utah and Colorado, or from paleo folks. When you put “elk stew recipe” into the Google, you get many things back. And none of them call for Campbell’s soup of any kind.

I had planned to make the Amy Thielen “bear and porter stew with fall spices” from the New Midwestern TableMy only issue with it was that it was all bear, no vegetables. Now I did take this to heart, sort of. If you’re going to make elk stew, or some other game stew, why not let the meat do the talking? My early memories of beef stew are that I loved the super tender, juicy chunks of roast beef, but was not all that interested in the giant pieces of carrot and potato covered in gravy. And we kind of lost interest in the leftovers of a lamb stew I made two weeks ago with the camel stew recipe once there was no more lamb in it.

So I told myself not to overdo it with the vegetables. Also, smaller pieces. But once you get a bunch of vegetables on the counter, it’s tough to hold back.

elk meat sauteeHere’s what I’ve learned about elk stew. You have to brown the meat. I don’t know why, but it’s universal. You can dredge the pieces in flour first or not. Since my elk steaks were thinner than I expected, I didn’t flour them and just browned on one side. It did throw off a fair amount of liquid.

You can use wine or beer. Dark beer is recommended, but the best I could do was amber ale. I’m sure it will be fine. I wanted it to be less bourguignon than beef stew, so chose beer. You can also use beef or chicken stock. I had chicken stocelk stew ingredientsk on hand.

For vegetables, onions and carrots and celery are standard and anything else is optional. I had parsnips and mushrooms (and I love stewed mushrooms) and a mix of very small potatoes (don’t they look like the last recipe’s bowl of beans?). One might even say micro tubers. I wanted to throw them in whole, so that worked fine.

The liquid should go about 3/4 up the crock pot. Low for 8 hours. In the last half hour, with the lid off and letting the stew thicken, I’ll add fresh rosemary and thyme. To start I just put in salt, pepper, and bay leaf. Garlic would also have been good.

It will be ready to eat just about the time the Colts and Patriots kick off.

elk stew in pot

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Bean and squash soup

bean squash soup

soup before the puree

I’ve started the year on this “clean eating” thing during January. And happily, it very closely resembles the way I usually eat. I’ve cut out caffeine and alcohol and cut down very seriously on the gluten. And my real goal was to cut out all sugar, but I just can’t do it. Still, I’ve cut out desserts and when I come home from work I have a spinach and date smoothie instead of a couple spoonfuls of ice cream. That’s an improvement.

storage ingredients: frozen squash, canned cherry tomatoes, roasted peppers, red pepper hot sauce

storage ingredients: frozen squash, canned cherry tomatoes, roasted peppers, red pepper hot sauce

You can ask Steve and he’ll tell you I am not a fan of soup for dinner. I don’t know why. I guess it means I’m not a fan of soup in general. I’d rather have an omelette or pancakes than soup for dinner. It’s definitely about flavor. I’ve had enough watery homemade chicken soup to last me a lifetime. It’s fine. I usually just stick with stews.

But last night I was looking for a soup recipe. I wanted one using squash and beans, but also, the squash was no longer in chunks– I had thawed 4 cups of “cool old squash” and it was pretty much “puree” with a little “texture.”

I couldn’t find anything that looked good online, so I built a soup myself. Or maybe it was a stew.

mirepoixI started with a mirepoix. Again, I apologize to Michael Pollan, whose book I still haven’t been able to finish; he’s right about flavor coming out of the 15-minute sautee of onion/carrot/celery to start.

Another key to flavor is tomatoes in the broth. So after I sautéed the sliced garlic about 30 seconds, I poured in a jar of cherry tomatoes. I wish you could have smelled those tomatoes– pure summer. My secret ingredient is a couple tablespoons of roasted sweet peppers (why do no soup recipes call for this?), and I put in a teaspoon of hot chili pepper sauce.

A major driver of this dish was the fact that I’d soaked the last two cups of dried beans and needed to use them. So into the mix went a carton of chicken broth and the beans. A half hour later, I stirred in the squash. This would have been a good time to serve it, but before serving I stuck the immersion blender in there and further “creamed” it. It still had whole beans and a few pieces of carrot and squash, so not smooth. But definitely delicious.

gorgeous beans, no?

gorgeous beans, no?

I know you can make soup of anything, but I wonder why most soup recipes in cookbooks and online are so, well, boring! I think the soup world needs the equivalent of a dry and wet zing. Just like this blogger recommends for jam. Peppers are zing! Oddly, celery is  zing, too! Tomatoes are zing. Vinegar is also zing– put a dash of that in a soup at the end. If it’s an Asian soup, don’t forget the fish sauce. Zing!

Potatoes, squash, and beans, even greens, even chicken, need help. Let’s get some zing!

Squash and Bean Soup

1 medium onion, diced
1 stalk celery, diced
2 medium carrots, chopped or diced
olive oil
3 cloves garlic, sliced
3 cups winter squash, cubed
1 quart tomatoes (small can, diced or whole broken up)
1 quart chicken broth
1 bay leaf
3-4 cups beans (canned or dry beans soaked overnight or, potatoes, why not?)
2 Tbs roasted red peppers, chopped
1 Tbs hot chili paste/sauce
salt and pepper to taste
1 Tbs vinegar (optional, if you want an extra zing)

Sautee the onion, celery and carrots for 10-15 minutes, not browning them. Add garlic and swirl for 30 seconds.

Add tomatoes, chicken broth, bay leaf and beans and simmer for 30 minutes, until soft. If your squash isn’t cooked already, add that at this point, too. If your squash is already cooked, add it after 30 minutes, along with the red peppers, chili paste/sauce.

Add the cooked squash, if using, and simmer for 10 minutes. Using an immersion blender, puree, but leave some beans/potatoes and squash for texture. Taste for salt and pepper.

Serves 6.

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Understanding North Dakota

wheat field Fisher NDI’ve been reading about North Dakota these days. Memoirs and diaries and long articles. It’s research for a novel set and in some ways about North Dakota. I have been reading with two basic questions in mind: “What is it like to live there?” and “Why do people stay?”

The first one is commonplace, but the second feels specific to North Dakota. Seen from the perspective of someone raised in the Chicago suburbs and well versed in what magazines and newspeople and top ten lists tell us are suitable places to live, the Dakotas fall short. Cold, economically depressed, and most of all, empty.

Prairie Silence coverIt is hard to wrap one’s imagination around a place as empty as North Dakota. Melanie Hoffert reports in her wonderful memoir, Prairie Silence, that there is an average of nine people per square mile in the state. When you figure most North Dakotans live in or around the two cities, Fargo and Grand Forks, right on the Minnesota border, that leaves a lot of empty land to the west. And the people who live there have fierce attachments to that land.

The people of North Dakota went to that frontier with the same dreams as other immigrants moving west. Primary among their dreams was the dream of land ownership and farming. The homesteads, however, proved difficult to hold onto. Ole Rolvaag, in his classic (about South Dakota or, more properly, Dakota territory) Giants in the Earth, gave a rough idea of the way the winds across the blank prairie could drive a person crazy. What struck me when I read that book was how far the new settlers had to travel just to find enough trees so they could build a wood house. Rachel Calof tells much the same story in her diary about being a Jewish settler near Devil’s Lake. In the winter they kept the chickens under their beds.

Unknown-2And then there is oil. I’ve been surprised by the lack of outrage or any real resistance to the fracking and horizontal drilling industry in western North Dakota. To help me understand, I read Fractured Land, by Lisa Westberg Peters. It introduced me to the depth of the oil hopes out there. Oil rights go back a century in the state, and there have been several waves of unsuccessful attempts to strike oil. Mineral/oil rights are often held separately from “surface rights,” so a different family might own the oil rights than the one that farms the land. And oil, in fact, more than food, is what many hoped for from that land. Add to that the current number of jobs created by the industry, and the situation starts to make sense. On top of that is a more wild west anti-government-interference attitude that is deep-seated in the state. Which just makes the fracking industry in North Dakota, the least regulated in the country, even more dangerous. The New York Times has done a good job covering this side of the story.

UnknownThe roots of that anti-government history is beautifully told in Ann Marie Low’s 1984 memoir, Dust Bowl Diary.   The book includes Ann Marie’s diary from 1927-1937, when her family lost their farm to a government conservation effort. The diary entries are connected by summary and connecting material written by Low. Her love for the land despite its difficulties, especially in year after year of drought, shines through in every entry. As the end of the book nears, her frustration with Roosevelt also becomes a theme. Along with accounts of teaching in a country school, farming with her brother and father, and teaching herself how to stuff gophers and other small creatures, she tells the story of land agents coming in and buying up the family farms for a wildlife refuge.

The refuge was clearly part of a program to take land out of agriculture that had virtually blown away during the years of drought. The land was clearly, at that moment, worthless. But it was not worthless to the farmers. The farmers had hopes. They had been through ups and downs in the previous decades and held onto those farms. Add to that the fact that some were paid so little that they still owed mortgages on the land the government took, and you’ve fostered some serious bad feelings against banks and the government.

granary train ardoch ndOf the books I’ve read recently, no one has answered the first two questions better than Melanie Hoffert. Her book is lovely, thoughtful, and gets closest I’ve ever read to articulating the pull and draw of a landscape that to many other people looks like a wasteland. Her book is ostensibly about understanding her identity as a lesbian vis a vis her home town and family farm in North Dakota. As she’s come into her own, mostly in the Twin Cities, “silence” has become a bad word. If she’s not talking about her gay identity, does that mean she’s ashamed? Does that mean she’s in the closet? Is everyone at home not mentioning it because they can’t accept it or, worse, are in denial?

What she comes to understand is that it is only she who is choosing not to talk about it, not to share, keeping herself in silence. And also that there is a comfortable silence, a full silence, that belongs to the prairie. There are silences filled with love. It is not about silencing. Which is not to say it’s all goodness and light out there. However, her relationships– with family, friends, the land, and also with God– are just fine, solid, loving and deep.

As I try to get deeper into understanding this world around me and these places, there is a goodness I’m trying to tap into. Not in a sentimental way, but as a core truth that we need to read about and see in people’s stories. Lord knows the surface and a lot of what’s going on in North Dakota is beyond troubling, including an increasing inability for people to find work with purpose, increasing drug trade and crime, and wide-scale destruction of the land out west. But I think in some ways I understand why people stay there. It is not in the hope of striking it rich, that’s for sure (most of the mineral rights folks no longer live there, just get their checks sent to them). It’s because that’s where they’re from and it is a land that has formed them and there’s nothing else like it.

sunflower field grasston nd

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Holiday Meals

photo-30New Year’s Eve is about food. Is anything not about food?

This year, unlike most years, I’m full of resolution. Time to turn this thing around. Exercise! No sugar! Weight Loss! Make my own cleaning products! I have plans, people…

Which means I needed some kind of send-off. I received two cookbooks for Christmas: Simple Food by Alice Waters, which I asked for, and which I received at Thanksgiving when we were with my family. I also received Sauces and ShapJacket_G_Sauces_and_Shapeses, which is another great Italian cookbook, and super inspiring. I’m gonna make my own pasta!

Last year on New Year’s Eve was the great cavatelli and pork braciole feast, with the tomato sauce that simmered for hours. This year, I did that on Christmas Eve, when we had all the people on the farm over and I had “kids” to help make the cavatelli. We made a veggie and a meat sauce and did some serious plating and serving.

 

team cavatelli

team cavatelli

I had sauce left, and even some pork, so all I needed for New Year’s was the ravioli. Oh yes, it would be ravioli.

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I had a bunch of crazy fillings: crab/ricotta/spinach; prociutto/ricotta (the book said the basis of ravioli is ricotta); pesto. Of course, none of it stood up at all to the sauce and pork. I did love the pesto-filled ravioli, which is great, because I have lots of frozen pesto.

Not that I’m eating pasta anymore…

Today, I made a pot of miso soup. It can be reheated and eaten as needed to curb hunger. We’re going on a cleanse. And what are we cleansing from?

This was a fantastic week of food. In addition to the three daughters and assorted partners, Catherine’s friend Yasu was here from Switzerland, and had his mother send a food care package here from Japan. We had a miso night, a sushi night, and then came back to the Midwest with some farm pork chops, turnip and potato gratin and leftover cranberry-apple-walnut conserve. And day and night there were Christmas cookies.

ramen display

ramen with three kinds of broth

The fridge is full now, with broccoli and smoothie fixings and kale. But don’t worry. I’m not going to suffer. There’s talk of sushi for dinner again tonight. (There’s no sugar in that, right?)

sushi table

sushi table

Homer assembling the ramen

Homer assembling the ramen

Yasu making the ramen

Yasu making the ramen

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Community

my own pantry in September, now much depleted after holiday gift giving.

my own pantry in September, now much depleted after holiday cooking and gift giving.

I’ve been volunteering a couple hours a month at the local food shelf. I’ve always given money to food shelves, and the most fun I ever had volunteering was sorting food and filling boxes at the Chicago Food Shelf about 15 years ago. Which is odd, because I really hate grocery shopping. But it turns out I love giving people food.

Our local food shelf has been operating a long time. When clients come in, we check their IDs to make sure they have a local address, and new clients have to fill out an application and show proof of residency, usually an apartment lease, signed, in their name. I can’t imagine turning anyone away and sometimes I see a card marked “will bring proof of residency next time.” Most of our clients are referrals from Catholic Charities or other social service agencies. They can come to the food shelf once a month, and they get food based in part on the number of people in their family. We pack boxes with a mix of staples and then we ask about other things– pancake mix and syrup? brownie mix or cake mix? pizza sauce? taco shells and spices?

Everyone gets meat, eggs, bread, butter, cheese and a voucher for a gallon of milk. We always have some produce, lately a lot of garden potatoes and also bagged lettuce, last week bags of tricolor organic carrots.

When I was working my shift in December, six people came in the two hours I worked. I would say we took in more donations than we gave out food. It was Advent after all, and people were in a giving move.

What stunned me was the visit from a local farmer. He came in wearing his cap and Carhart jacket, and had two other older men with him to help. “I have a truckload,” he said, after the volunteer I was working with greeted him by name.

stock photo

stock photo

Then he and the other two guys started bringing in the goods. First, a very large box with stacked cardboard pallets of eggs. I transferred them to cartons between customers, I’d say 10-12 dozen.

Then a large box of homemade jams, all different kinds. “Did Monica make these?” my volunteer partner asked. “His wife Monica is amazing,” she said to me. We filled the shelf with jams. Next, a large bag of potatoes and another of onions. We’d keep those with the produce and put a few in a bag for each client.

Some miscellaneous boxes with other run-of-the-mill canned good donations, cans of soda I doubt they drink, some canned soups and cereal.

Then, to my shock and amazement, a dozen bottles of maple syrup they made last year.

black-walnutsAnd finally, a box of large canisters filled with walnuts. Black walnuts from their trees. “Monica thought people might like these for Christmas baking,” the farmer said.

If you want to know about harvesting and preparing  black walnuts, click here.  Here’s an opening excerpt: “The flavor of black walnut lends a gourmet touch to cookies, breads, cakes and other baked goods. The nutmeats are often expensive and difficult to locate.”

Of course, my greedy and acquisitive nature at first inspired jealousy. “Oh my god, how can I get my hands on that maple syrup and black walnuts!” I felt similarly in October when the freezer at the food shelf was filled with donated packages of farm-raised lamb from a local farmer. (That was not as intense, since I can buy his lamb at the farmer’s market.) Perhaps I should get to know Monica!

But those feelings were very quickly replaced by the joy of being able to be the one to give people these delicacies. And there were clients who were very happy to receive, especially, the walnuts, for baking. We also had flour and sugar to offer if they didn’t have any. And eggs. And butter.

And also, it has been hard to wrap my mind around this food shelf. We don’t log in or weigh or record any of the donations. It is quite common to receive garden produce, and we always have home-canned jellies, jams and honey. We wouldn’t give people fully prepared foods, like home-baked cookies, but we would put those things out on the table in the waiting area, sort of a “take at your own risk” area.

It was not like this at the Chicago food shelf. To my recollection, a LOT of the food we received was expired, and one of our chief tasks was to check cans for expiration dates, possible botulism, broken seals. We threw a lot of stuff away. And many people clearly were cleaning out their pantries from “weird” foods that people were unlikely to want to eat unless they luckily fell into a particular ethnic group. Red bean paste, jackfruit, stuff like that.

When that farmer arrived with his helpers to make the big delivery, I felt like I was seeing another old and unexpected tradition, another vestige of real, deep community. This food shelf is quite small, and only open four hours a week. But it is above all a place where neighbors help neighbors.

Later in the afternoon one of the nuns, a Lodermeier, who grew up on a farm that is famous in this area for its U-Pick strawberries, came by with another box of jams she preserved. She wanted a little tour, so we brought her back into the room full of shelves stacked with food. “I just wanted to see what was in here,” she said.

It is a real pantry. Of course there are plenty of cans of Campbell’s soup and boxes of Cheerios. Lots of brownie mixes and taco seasoning packets and jars of spaghetti sauce and boxes of pasta. But also in the mix are some extraordinary things, items I never expected to see in the food shelf pantry, real gifts of a community with a long history of feeding its neighbors.

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Serial: Not a Monster

Unknown-1Sarah Koenig reached a conclusion. And it was not about the guilt or innocence of Adnan Syed, but about the lack of evidence and the poor case against him. Reviewing the evidence (again and again) and speaking to everyone who would speak to her, she could not assemble for herself a clear narrative backed up by evidence that pointed to his guilt. There were too many questions. And so she reached a conclusion that was clear from episode two: if she were on the jury, she could not have found him guilty.

So why did millions of people listen for 12 hours to a story that really could have been done in one or two? I think it was because we like Adnan, the Adnan on the radio. And that surprised us. I think ultimately what came out of this podcast was humanizing Adnan Syed. What I will think about for a long time is that he is not a monster, and that our prisons are full of people who are also not monsters.

For over a year, I have been writing letters to a death row inmate. I know a Catholic nun who matches people with inmates on death row in North Carolina, where there is such a history of racism in sentencing that a “Racial Justice Act” was passed that put a de facto moratorium on executions in the state in 2006. The conservative governor overturned that legislation in 2013.

Robby is the same age as I am. He has been on death row since 1998, a year longer than Adnan Syed has been in prison. When I first received his name, I Googled the crime he was convicted for and was horrified. I went into this with preconceptions. I expected him to be stupid and his letters to be full of platitudes. I expected that what he would write to me would mostly be lies. Even though my primary reason for writing him was Helen Prejean’s maxim that no one should be judged for the worst thing they’ve ever done, I thought the worst. Of course I did.

Robby is not stupid. He is an eloquent writer and able to write clearly about his experience, past and present. He has a very strong presence on the page, and his letters reveal a compassionate and likable person. His letters are structured well. He responds to things I tell him about my life and asks about people in my life.

The truth is, I don’t care if Robby is guilty or innocent. That doesn’t matter to me in terms of being his pen pal. I am interested in the world where he lives, his experience, and most of the time it grieves me. I want to let him know that he is not forgotten and he is not alone. I ask him about his childhood, his health, his friendships now and from before.

And in the voice of Adnan, I often heard Robby’s voice. There was that Southern lilt. There were also the same grammatical errors. And Robby, like Adnan, is so upbeat, so positive, so open and even surprisingly childlike. So much of life stopped in 1998 when he went to prison.

I have read more online about Robby’s case recently. Although he has never written to me about his case, news coverage shows he has always maintained his innocence. I don’t know what his role was in the murders for which he received the death penalty, but I do know he was not at the scene of the crime and that two other people committed it. Of the three, he is the only one on death row. That just comes down to the jury pool. In the case of one of his co-defendants, one of the jurors had a crisis of conscience and couldn’t bring herself to send someone (a white woman) to death row, and so, lacking unanimity, they voted for life in prison without parole.

The recent release of Henry McCollum after 30 years on death row in North Carolina has encouraged some of the inmates. The New York Times reported: “Mr. McCollum also spoke of the 152 men still on death row in the state prison, whom he called his family. ‘You’ve still got innocent people on North Carolina death row,’ he said. ‘Also you’ve got some guys who should not have gotten the death penalty. That’s wrong. You got to do something about those guys.’”

For me, this correspondence with Robby has been a real awakening. It makes me cognizant of my own freedom and privilege. I realize that privilege when I get angry that the state of North Carolina charges me a huge fee for sending a Christmas gift, or then confiscates that gift as a copay for a health appointment, when that wasn’t what I sent it for. Or when I don’t follow protocol on an amazon.com order of a few books for Robby and include a box of envelopes to get free shipping, then worry that they will return the whole order (they didn’t, just confiscated the envelopes). Or, you know, any time I experience my innumerable privileges and freedoms.

I look forward to his letters. I realize it is important to me not just to recognize him but that he continues to recognize me. It makes me more aware, too, of people right around me who might be forgotten or invisible or ignored.

stuff_serial_46[1]Now that the first season of Serial is over, I know why I tuned in every week. I never expected Sarah Koenig to “solve” the murder or exonerate Adnan Syed. It was annoying that she kept acting like that was going to happen. I know what will stick with me the longest is the voice of Adnan Syed. Someone who is not a monster. Someone who should not have been convicted of murder, because of the lack of evidence and poor case against him. Someone we all turned our attention to for twelve weeks, and about whom we know so very, very little. Someone like Robby.

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Pickled Pineapple

pineapples cannedChristmas is a time when I allow myself to get all “exotic” with the food. My favorite  Depression-era story about Christmas tells of children receiving oranges in their stockings. As a child, it was probably the first time I ever considered where food came from and realized that oranges grew far away and were once a luxury for Midwesterners like me. As a kid, I loved making ornaments by poking oranges full of cloves.

aaorangeNow we can buy clementines by the crate, as well as pineapples and my new favorite, pomegranates. I did have trouble finding whole pineapples for this recipe, but finally got two lovely, ripe ones at “the fancy grocery” in St. Cloud. (I also look forward to this store’s half-price wheel of brie special every Christmas.)

This does not really qualify as a project in “the year of ferment,” which was kind of underwhelming as a whole but did result in a new love of sauerkraut and the regular manufacture of kimchi in my kitchen. However, pickles are also not my favorite food, so expanding the pickling repertoire is kind of a bold new move for me.

I tasted these pickled pineapples in September at a cooking retreat at the retreat center where I work. I was really skeptical. Vinegar and fruit just do not go together. I expected some kind of sweet-and-sour flavor, but that is not what I experienced at all.

pineapplesThis is one of the most delicious things I’ve ever tasted. I immediately resolved to make a batch when Christmas came around. I can’t wait to serve it to visiting family and even have three canned jars for gifts.

My main issue was finding star anise. I ended up having to buy more star anise than I wanted or am likely to use in two years. It’s best if you can find it in bulk, because you only need one little star.

As you can see, I left the spices in the jars. I really like these spices and think it’s great that the flavor will get more potent. Another option would be to let it sit on the stove for an hour or so (especially if you’re not going to can it– in which case, cut the recipe in half) with a spice bag and then remove the spices before putting it in a jar.

I tasted this recipe the day after I made it and you could hardly detect the vinegar (and I was trying). Over time, the syrup and spices will develop and it will get even better. It will also keep a long time in the fridge, though I suspect the jar will be devoured over Christmas. When Ward put it on the table at the House of Prayer, we all went back for seconds and thirds. I hope some of you will try it. And I hope whatever you do, you’ll try something new and even exotic this holiday season.

pineapples simmeringPickled Pineapple

2 medium pineapples (mine must have been large, because I had to take the other proportions up by 1/2 to get enough liquid)
2 cups brown sugar
2 cups water
1 cup vinegar
1 Tbs whole cloves
1 Tbs whole allspice
1 Tbs crushed red pepper (I used much less, but that pepper zing is really extraordinary)
1 star anise
1 cinnamon stick, broken

  1. Peel and core the pineapple and cut into 1″ cubes or spears
  2. In a dutch oven, mix the sugar, water, and vinegar. Add the spices or alternately tie the spices into a cheesecloth, and add to the sugar mixture. Bring to a boil and boil for about 5 minutes.
  3. Add the pineapple and return to a boil. Reduce heat to a simmer and cover and cook for 5 minutes. Remove the spice bag if using and discard.
  4. Pack the hot pineapple into hot, clean, half-pint jars and cover with the liquid, leaving 1/2″ head room. Screw on the lids. Process in boiling water to cover for 10 minutes. Remove and cool on towels. Store in a cool, dry place. If you’re not sealing the lids, store them in jars in the refrigerator.

*Note: If not removing the spices, the pickle will be more spicy and potent.

yield: 6 half pints (clearly I got much more from my two pineapples: 5 half-pints and two larger containers!)

 

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Carrots in December

december carrots
Last night I went down to the basement and rooted around in a bucket of sand until I had unearthed all the carrots I buried there in August. The sand was cold and damp. Some of the carrots had sprouted on top, and a few were bumpy, but all are bright orange and fresh looking.

I wish there were more. More! More! More! I had that greedy feeling I have when bringing up the last of anything fresh (potatoes, onions, garlic, squash, beans, beets, parsnips) from storage, that it sure didn’t last that long. I know this is actually a good thing because it shows I’m cooking more vegetables, cooking through, and next year I can always grow and keep more…. Next year I’m hoping to be harvesting carrots directly from the ground in December, out in raised beds in the greenhouse, the “candy carrots” Eliot Coleman writes about in his four-season harvest books.

And really, garden carrots in December. These carrots, now being kept in the fridge, will be part of a couple pans of roasted vegetables I’ll make during Christmas week when I have a house full of 20-somethings.

photo-22I’m reading books on mini-farming, winter gardening, greenhouse keeping. I am skeptical about the talk in them of making money or of saving thousands of dollars on food. I actually think it’s more or less a wash for me, financially. But I also know what my food tastes like now that I get it from the garden, and what a bag of carrots from the grocery store tastes like. I am going to try to track more things next year: weigh produce, record how much I give away, keep a better list of expenses on seeds and amendments and equipment. The truth is, I spend more money on my garden than on anything else. But it is in little increments– what’s $30 for the seed potatoes in spring? What’s $50 for beautiful seed garlic in July? What’s $120 for seeds in January? Who can argue with money for new hoses and compost and some seedlings in May?

And who knows. I might just become a market gardener some day.

 

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