Moroccan Camel Stew

somali camel in st cloudA week ago, when I went into St. Cloud Meat and Grocery, one of several Somali grocery stores in town, to buy some rice, there were a couple guys in the back of the store chopping meat. I asked what kind of meat they had, thinking if it was lamb I would buy some.

“Camel,” said the owner.

“Camel?”

He smiled. “Do you want to see it?” Well, of course I did. We went to the meat counter and he showed me the bags of chunky red meat, some of the chunks entirely fat. The boys were busily mincing up some other kind of meat.

How could I resist? I bought a little over a pound of camel stew meat. “What is it like?” I asked the man. “What other meat recipes should I look for?”

camel stew ingredients“It’s like goat,” he said. After quickly considering and dispensing with the idea of the Bedouin wedding dish parodied in T.C. Boyle’s novel Water Music, whole stuffed camel, (good for when you have to feed 400 or so), I looked for something featuring African spices and went looking for African goat stews. I found this one on a blog called Jan’s Sushi Bar: www.janssushibar.com/moroccangoatstew/

camel stew plateIt looked like just the thing. And since there is still snow outside, and it is grey and sleeting, it seemed like a good time to open some cans and make a stew! I don’t have any more squash, so instead of topping it with roasted squash, I added a can of garbanzo beans near the end. I also decided to add potatoes when I saw how much sauce there was, and cooked them separately and added them I served it over rice. I was able to pluck off enough baby arugula, brocolli, spinach and kale leaves from my plants on the windowsill for the greens. (This recipe is actually a lot like the pork, pumpkin and turnip stew I made in October and would certainly be good with kale and other veggies as well.)

It was very delicious. The meat was very flavorful and mild, and I liked it as much as lamb (and I love lamb). It did have fatty pieces, but no more than a pork shoulder or beef stew, and the meat itself was very lean, not as rich as lamb. The gravy was rich and flavorful and the potatoes were a must, as they took to the gravy quite well.

Moroccan Camel Stew

Ingredients

2 tablespoons ghee
1 medium onion, diced
1 pound camel, goat, lamb, venison or beef stew meat, cut in 1″ cubes
2 cloves garlic, minced
1 can (28 ounces) plum tomatoes, chopped
1 cinnamon stick
4-6 dried apricots, diced small
pinch saffron (I didn’t have this)
2 cups chicken stock
2 cups diced potato
2 cans garbanzo beans

Spice Mixture
Note: I doubled all the spices for 1.25 lbs camel, which made for a very flavorful stew broth. In the future I might double the cumin and coriander and stick with the other proportions.

1 teaspoon ground cumin
1 teaspoon ground coriander
1 teaspoon ground ginger
1 1/2 teaspoon smoked paprika
1 teaspoon turmeric
1/2 teaspoon chili powder (I used a red garlic chutney powder)
1 teaspoon kosher or sea salt
few grinds of black pepper

Garnishes: All optional or add your own twist

1 cup baby arugula or other young spring greens
1 cup cubed roasted butternut squash, pumpkin or other winter squash
1 lb kale, blanched and chopped
lemon juice? (I didn’t use any, but it would probably be good even to quarter a lemon and simmer it with the stew)

Instructions

  1. Melt the ghee in a Dutch oven over medium heat. Cook the onion until soft and transparent, about 5 minutes.
  2. Place the spices for the spice mixture in a medium bowl and mix. Toss the camel in 1/2 the mixture  (if you double it) until well-coated. Add the camel and garlic to the Dutch oven with the onions; increase the heat to medium high and cook, stirring frequently, until the camel is browned (do this step quickly– if it overcooks it will be tough).
  3. Stir the tomatoes, rest of the spice mix if you doubled it (to taste), cinnamon stick, apricots, saffron, and chicken stock into the Dutch oven with the spiced goat. Increase the heat to high and bring to a boil; cover, reduce heat to low and simmer for 1 1/2 hours, stirring occasionally.
  4. Add the cubed potatoes and garbanzo beans. Remove the cover and continue cooking until the sauce has thickened and the meat becomes fork tender, about another half hour. (At this point, the stew can be refrigerated and reheated later.)
  5. Divide the stew between four bowls and top with the greens and roasted squash. Serve immediately.
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Two Months to the Summer Solstice

garden beds snow 4-20-13Most popular blogs tend to be about one thing. They focus on gardening, cooking, culture or politics… And the bloggers who maintain them post frequently, sometimes even daily.

If this were a garden blog, each entry for the last two months would read something like this: “Today I trudged out through a foot of snow to see…” There would be some drama: the turkey that scavenged from the compost pile and kept uncovering the garlic beds… the death of the two apple trees I forgot to wrap that were girdled by rabbits… the arrival of the new and improved cold frame. I have kept you posted on those things. But most posts would have told the endless story of rising and falling levels of snow.

windowsill plants 4-20-13There’s also the story of my downstairs windowsill. Next year I’ll try to keep from planting anything (except leeks, you gotta get those leeks started early) until the Ides of March. Some days this April I haven’t been able to bring myself to go down there and see the spindly, sad plants trying to make a go of it.

paul robesons 4-20-13

Paul Robesons 4-20-13

Yesterday I opened my spring newsletter from Seed Savers Exchange. There was a piece on seed starting that scolded people like me. It gave the good advice that heat mats are necessary (it’s not just light, but heat that starts germination). I have two heating pads under my seed trays, the reason my peppers have all germinated. But, it said, “Don’t put plants on a sunny windowsill! At least get grow lamps. No windowsill will provide enough light for strong and healthy plants.”

Well, hmm. I have a really sunny windowsill, and here in the North Country we get a lot of sunlight even this time of year. But it’s true the starving, tough little guys grow long stems and crane their necks to the window… The thing is, I really hadn’t planned on having them down there that long!

Yesterday I saw that the broccoli raab is flowering. This was one of the things I was most looking forward to, and hopefully will still have a brief season for outside. I love “broccolini” that you get at Trader Joe’s. Turns out it’s fast-growing and the leaves are good greens as well. I was excited to find the seeds at Fedco Seeds. And, sure enough, they sprung up and now are flowering, though the stems never thickened on my windowsill.

May 15 is traditionally the last frost day here in Central Minnesota. That will probably be the date I plant the potatoes and even move out the tomatoes with their wind protection… I’ll hold back the peppers until June.

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An Actual/Virtual Dystopia

anonymous imageSomething happened on Sunday that shook me up, as it seemed to mark a change or shift in the way the world operates that is deeply unsettling.

A number of people were posting on Facebook about the suicide of Canadian 17-year-old Rehtaeh Parsons after she was raped and subsequently bullied. Some of the posts focused on the work of Anonymous, an unorganized international group of “hacktavists” who claim they were able to find out the identity of two of four of Rehtaeh’s rapists in two hours and will soon know the other identities as well. As we all know, there is an incredible amount of information about crimes on the internet since idiots, particularly teen idiots, are unable to keep from bragging and posting photos of what they do.

I’m familiar with the role played by a blogger in drawing attention to online evidence about the rape of a teenager in Steubenville, Ohio, which ultimately led to a conviction of a local football player. I thought this might be similar.

One of my Facebook friends posted a link to a video made by Anonymous about the Rehtaeh Parsons case. While watching it, I got chills up my spine. It is the video that unnerved me.

It has what I can only call “high performative values.” It is crafted to look like a futuristic news announcement, the kind that might break in on television sets in Gotham during the plot of a Batman movie, with an arch-villain, though in this case an arch-vigilante, in a mask making a computer-generated voice announcement and demands. Here, from Youtube, is the video:


I had to keep telling myself “this is real,” while watching it, and also in my brain I kept saying, “What does this mean?” What does it mean about our culture, about justice, about reality and virtual reality?

That very same night, my favorite show on television, The Good Wife, played out an eerily simliar scenario (clearly modeled on the Steubenville case). On the show, the firm represents a rape victim and begins to receive evidence from Anonymous. Members of Anonymous even show up in the courtroom, demanding justice. Although the lawyers can “confirm and validate” the photographic and video evidence, it is not allowed in the trial because it was obtained improperly.

good wife anonymousOn the show, the question seems to be: “Did Anonymous do more harm than good?” in disrupting the trial, which the victim was losing due to lack of evidence, OR, “Did Anonymous do exactly what was called for by publicizing the truth online?” The case was a civil trial and what the victim wanted more than anything was an acknowledgment of what happened to her, public shaming of the rapist, and that, in the end, is what she got.

In the case of Rehtaeh Parsons and her Anonymous, I can’t find my way past the problems I have with the medium. What does it mean to perform this dystopian vision using real information and real people? What does it mean that the bullying and shaming that led to Rehtaeh’s death was also online, and now this sort of justice by terroristic-style threat is happening online?

When I read  George Orwell’s 1984, I wasn’t afraid. It was 1980, and Communist tyranny had lost its teeth. Nor was I afraid watching Blade Runner or Brazil or, for that matter, Batman or Spiderman. The dystopic future represented in those fictions seemed very unreal. The questions about the nature of humanity were gripping, and could be explored in the safe space provided by the genre.

Sometimes when I watch Jon Stewart’s show I am uncomfortable, especially when he has to keep insisting “We’re a comedy show, not a news show.”  Particularly when they mock-interview or expose/shame real people in their 60 Minutes style interview “comedy”  segments. In fact, Jon Stewart is taking a leave of absence to make a film that tells the story of Maziar Bahari. Mr. Bahari was actually jailed in Iran as a spy and the “evidence” was one of these comedy segments with Jason Jones. You could say he was irreparably harmed by this performative blurring due in large part to our sophistication with video narrative.

When I watched the Anonymous video, I was not just uncomfortable. I was afraid. I’m not ready for this. I don’t want to see my present on that screen.

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We Sinners, a review

we sinners book coverI just finished reading Hannah Pylväinen’s 2012 debut novel We Sinners. Of course, it caught my attention by the title alone, and the description that it was about a large family (9 children) in a Christian sect.

The book is very well written and flows easily. I would recommend it to people who like books driven by characters. It reads like a collection of short stories, each one focusing on a single character in the Rovaniemi family (all written in the third person). The children are considered one by one at the key moment when they are ready to choose between staying in the restrictive religious life in which they’ve been raised or leave it. If they go, they don’t quite face an Amish shunning, but pretty close.

The book is decidedly stacked against the sect. This doesn’t surprise me, as Pylväinen made the choice to leave her fundamentalism when she left for college at Mount Holyoke, and the book is most probably her MFA thesis. But what I’m really missing is the case for the religion– at least for some of the children. All I really learn about the sect is that they do not participate in modern culture: t.v., dance music, movies and alcohol. However, the children, in public schools and public universities, aren’t actively kept from these things. They don’t have a uniform or live particularly anabaptist lives.

It does seem a very high value to have lots of children, as many as you can, but this is also portrayed as a dreary, trapped sort of life. The religious life is portrayed as impoverished, culturally and financially. The kids who stay in drift away, are sad or frustrated, or simply swallowed up in a bland life about which there seems nothing much to say. Their chapters close quickly and suddenly, and they mostly don’t reappear.

I don’t think this is all the author has to say on the subject. Her review of “Breaking Amish” for The Wall Street Journal offers a moving plea for a more full appreciation of what is offered by fundamentalist families like the one she grew up in, and a rich sense of what is lost. What is lost is not just close family ties or the approval of parents, but a world view. She writes:

In leaving the church when I was in college, I soon saw I had not stepped into anything else. My admittance into a dubious form of atheism merited no special membership. Atheism seemed, if anything, a community that eschewed community, that strove to preserve the strength of the individual. Thus I clung to anything that might provide stability—a boyfriend, school friends, professors. But these relationships, good as some were, were largely transient—friendships that swelled and faded in response to the changing mileage between us.

This isn’t to say the world has not been kind to me in its own fashion, that I have not found my own freedoms valuable—but it is a lonely place, bound to nothing but what I bind myself to. And I find myself worrying, always, that these ties will not be lasting enough.

I would suggest that what she calls “a dubious form of atheism” is in fact the larger liberalism in which most of us live, that focuses on the individual and choice (i.e., freedom) as the highest values. There is no doubt that the characters in the book who go into the world seem to have easier, more pleasant, successful lives, although they are also in a state of grief and anxiety.

The book takes on, in the end, a large question, maybe the largest: “How, then, shall we live?” This question is asked in Ezekiel 33:10, and alluded to in Romans 6:1. It’s the core question for believers of all kinds (“Knowing God, how then shall we live differently.”) But it’s really the core question for everyone. Whether the goal is happiness, success, love, fulfillment, connection, purpose, the question is the same. In this way, the book has a lot in common with Chinua Achebe’s Things Fall Apart, about which I recently wrote.

This book doesn’t pretend to have answers, which is very nice. It could certainly offer more depth to the discussion, or maybe more sympathy and understanding of the beauty and purposefulness of a life within the tradition. But maybe it’s best to see this book as a debut, as an introduction. I look forward to reading more and seeing what she figures out and what stories she tells.

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The Habits Broadside Project

sand hill cranes closeup 4 13OK, so it turns out we weren’t exactly north of the storm… In the end, we got 10 inches of heavy snow over 30 hours. This morning, the sand hill cranes were very quiet, delaying their mating rituals until the mood gets better.

Inside, I transplanted seedlings to bigger pots, hoping they won’t get too weak or leggy before I can put them out. And on Thursday, I went in to the College of Saint Benedict to see a lovely project based on my book Habits.

six broadsidesThanks to Rachel Melis and her book arts/letterpress class, six selections from Habits have been made into broadsides. The project is part of the centennial celebration for the College of Saint Benedict, founded by the Sisters of the Order of Saint Benedict in 1913. I did the research for the collection of stories in the Sisters’ archives, and some of the stories were based on stories told to me by those Sisters.

milkIn addition to setting the stories, the students also were assigned a style to design in, referencing specific letterpress designers or the style of a particular press. For this reason, each one is distinctive, giving a nice range to the project. They used polymer film plates and were required to use two colors on the final piece, which involved multiple plates and passes through the press. In the end, they chose the best 30 prints from a run of 60. I was gifted with set number 1!

home visit

It was interesting to me to see the pieces individually, outside the context of the book. I really enjoyed the art the students brought to the pieces. For “Home Visit,” they used topographic maps of Minnesota lakes, including Lake Sagatagan at Saint John’s University. They wanted to use Lake Sarah on the CSB campus, but it was too small for tracing.

floraThe piece “Flora,” done in the William Morris style, tells the story of Sister Remberta Westkaemper, OSB, who is known for her work collecting plant specimens and cataloging the flora of Central Minnesota. The students obtained a photo of one of her specimens and mounted it on the final prints.

talkI love the boldness of “Talk,” and how they emphasized the words “women’s ordination.” I also appreciate the formality of “Music,” which tells the story of Sister Cecile Gertken, OSB, going to hear classical music at Saint John’s with her family when she was young. “Crows” also has a bold detail in the language, and the subtle coloring of “Milk” as well as the vintage graphic is as playful as the written piece.

We’re hoping to have these broadsides up in the library during the CSB all-school reunion this June. Meanwhile, I already have one up on my wall!

Like most poets, I’ve always wanted to see my work in a fine letterpress edition. I’m grateful to Rachel Melis and her students, who fought with the ink and plates and even some variations in text, put in long (and late) hours, and in the end produced such lovely work!

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April

farm wintry in aprilHello! I know I need to blog today if only to move the homepage from Easter! We are ten days into the Easter season (Alleluia!) and slogging through the most unscenic time of the year here.

We’ve continued to have highs in the low 40s (or even 30s) and there is a winter storm warning through tomorrow night. We seem to be north of the storm, which could dump as much as 20 inches of snow on Southern Minnesota. Hooray for being north of the snow!

Yesterday, I scrounged up more firewood for the House of Prayer, where I work. There was no more available from the campus source, as they need all that they can get to for the maple syrup operation, but a friend donated some to the cause. Got to keep the place cozy!

prescott hooksAs you see, the snow has melted and some grass is even asserting itself. However, the garden beds are mostly frozen– no sign of the little rhubarb brains unfurling or the much-anticipated asparagus. This past weekend I was in LaCrosse, Wisconsin, giving a retreat on The Saint John’s Bible. I took the scenic route, but really, though the topography itself is quite lovely along the river, I don’t have photos worth showing. I did stop at the welcome center in Prescott, Wisconsin, where they are very proud of their fishhooks! And I was greeted by my name on a giant marquee!

The Franciscan Sisters of Perpetual Adoration, who run the retreat center that invited me, have a gorgeous chapel and large convent on the edge of their college, Viterbo University. I felt right at home. They have their stories, too. Sisters have been praying there continuously since the 19th century. In fact, two Sisters stayed in the adoration chapel even as a fire raged through the convent, stopping (miraculously) when it reached the large statue of St. Peter with his sword at the entrance of the ornate church.

marquee lacrosseBack here at home, we are somewhat hunkered down until it gets warm. I’ve got some freelance work and am applying myself. My seed potatoes are hopefully sprouting downstairs in a covered basket, and I’ve taken this opportunity to put myself on a modified detox diet, eating simply, small portions, mostly vegetables. My husband had the stomach flu all week, so it’s been particularly uninspiring around here. Alas, no blog-worthy recipes either.

We continue to live in hope. April showers bring May flowers, and even the peppers have germinated on the windowsill in the basement… Meanwhile, know that I am looking for blog material and will be back soon!

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Preparations

dinner rolls bakedI love hosting Easter at our house. Steve has hosted lots of family gatherings in this house, and it’s only taken me five years to relax and realize that there is an order to this and everything will work.

I like to do my cleaning ahead– on Thursday before the Triduum liturgy begins, and be quiet and slow over the next few days. Steve springs into action on Saturday, assembling large tables and every spare chair on the farm, doing the cleaning jobs I set aside for him (kitchen and living room floors) and on Sunday morning getting everything set up while I cook the ham.dinner rolls rising

This year is a bit challenging because of the snow– nowhere to put the plastic eggs outside. I’ve decided just to put them along the driveway and let the younger kids go out and gather them…

This is the season of “threes,” and it’s nice to have a three-day preparation. For our feast, Steve has made three batches of his cracked cold frame in snowwheat dinner rolls, a dozen each day. Bread rising is also very nice to have going along during this feast… along with the hard-boiled eggs we turn into egg salad or eat whole on Good Friday and Holy Saturday. For dinner, salmon on a bed of lettuce with a citrus dressing. Everything feels light and quiet and good.

cold frame arugula 3-30-13Today was a gloriously warm day, the first real spring day. All day long I’ve been trumpeted by the pair of sand hill cranes who returned midweek. I transplanted some arugula and kale out into the cold spring, and planted some beets and radishes. In their place inside I planted parsley, sage, basil and lovage. The tomato plants are just barely coming up, and I’m holding onto hope that the peppers got enough heat to germinate.

sand hill crane 3-30-13Check out my piece on Cowbird where I was able to post a recording of the sand hill cranes. I got close enough to one of them (below) to make him spread his wings.

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The Nun’s Story

A_ Hepburn nuns storyI just finished reading The Nun’s Story by Kathryn Hulme. It is really good. I recommend it to anyone who has an interest in why someone might choose to enter a religious order and how the discipline of religious life forms a person for life.

I first heard of this book when my grandmother tried to give me a copy. We were visiting her in New Jersey and my sister and I were teenagers, after we had converted from Catholicism to the Assembly of God Church. I knew she wanted us to come back to the Catholic Church, and that’s why, for the first time ever, she was giving me a book.

My grandmother couldn’t have had more than 10 books in her house. It is possible that books came and went, but my sense is that she wasn’t much of a reader. She had an education cut short by the Depression and worked hard her whole life. To have her hand me this thick hardcover book and insist that I would really like it was an odd experience. I was sure it would be boring– the title alone seemed completely uninspired. I had no interest in nuns, having never met one even when we were Catholics, and I didn’t want to open the door to her thinking I might consider becoming one.

If I had taken the book at the time, I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t have gotten through it. The truth is, the first third is only interesting to me now because I’ve become extraordinarily interested in nuns! The first part of this book goes through the years of formation experience in a cloistered monastery in Belgium, which seems to me to be very much like all formation experiences of Sisters in all religious orders in all parts of the world at that time, in the 1920s-30s. The process and the inner struggles of a faithful woman whose real desire is to seek and serve God, loving God and others through service as a nun and a nurse, is told in a detail some might find tiresome. To me, it feels like the only way to possibly convey the depth of this experience. This formation underlies everything that happens for the rest of the book. And once she leaves the cloister, there is more dialogue and more, well, plot.

The second part of the story follows this nun, Sister Luke, during her years as a missionary nurse in the Congo. In the final part of the novel she travels back to Belgium for a short stay but is “stuck” there during World War II. It is her experience with convent life during WWII that brings about the resolution– at the end of the book she leaves the convent, believing it is more important to do work as a lay nurse in aiding the victims of war and fighting the enemy than to stay in religious life, which has meant certain compromises and a standard of love (forgiving the Nazis) that she finds impossible and, in fact, unconscionable. Feeling she could be of more help outside the convent is a very contemporary issue for nuns. What is the place of the convent/cloister/motherhouse in a life of service?

Mary Louise Habets

Mary Louise Habets

The book, which was on the New York Times bestseller list and made into a popular and award-winning film with Audrey Hepburn in 1956, was written by an American, Kathryn Hulme (1900-1981). She met the woman whose autobiography provides the story, Marie Louise Habets (Sister Xaverine), while working at a camp in Germany assisting displaced Polish people after the war. The two women became lifelong partners, sharing a home and life together for 40 years.

Hulme seems like a very avante garde person. Another of her books recounts her experiences studying in Paris with George Gurdjieff  an esoteric Christian teacher of Turkish/Armenian descent who promoted a “method” toward higher consciousness. It is a testament to these two women’s relationship that Habets would entrust her story to Hulme and that Hulme would be able to get it so right.

 

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Chinua Achebe

chinua_achebe1If I were making my desert island list of fiction, my top four would be, in no particular order, Bleak House, My Antonia, Middlemarch and Things Fall Apart. I initially read Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe to prepare for an assignment teaching Non-Western Literature in Translation to community college students. My love for this book never diminished, and I eventually also taught it in Introduction to Literature classes, where it worked in tandem with Greek and Shakespearean tragedy.

But I was interested in it as the most gripping illustration of what happens to religion in the face of modernity I’d ever read. There is a scene at the end of Part Two of the novel, where our hero Okonkwo sits before a fire and considers what it means that his son has followed the colonialists and become a Christian. In the tribal worldview, the elders perform ritual ceremonies and even tribunals in the form of a masquerade. They put on elaborate masks and become inhabited by the spirits of the great ones who have died. The people call forth this Masquerade. Another of my literary heroes, Wole Soyinka, writes in a memoir about his childhood that the masquerade figures, while completely recognizable as men from the village, were experienced as utterly supernatural (and terrifying) figures. It was simply a cultural reality that the Masquerade was the embodiment, the possession, of the great elders.

thins fall apart coverOkonkwo believes that he will someday join these spirits. And the book describes this moment: “Suppose when [Okonkwo] died all his male children decided to follow Nwoye’s [his son’s] steps and abandon their ancestors? Okonkwo felt a cold shudder run through him at the terrible prospect, like the prospect of annihilation. He saw himself and his fathers crowding around their ancestral shrine waiting in vain for worship and sacrifice and finding nothing but ashes of bygone days, and his children the while praying to the white man’s god. If such a thing were ever to happen, he, Okonkwo, would wipe them off the face of the earth.”  But of course, this is just bluster– this is his primary characteristic, his brute power, become moot. He would be trapped in the earth, impotent as ash.

Okonkwo’s world is brutal and Nwoye, a sensitive child, is crushed by an early action by his father. Nwoye is no brute warrior, and he goes where he finds opportunity and the promise of a more gentle life, with the powerful white colonials. In the final part of the book, the colonial government brings down its own hammer, that of the Law, and the tribe’s culture is completely destroyed.

What has always moved me about this book is the portrayal of the collapse of a religious world view. It resonated with me at the time as a reflection of how a stifling experience of Christianity in my youth had made it very difficult for me to hold onto God. And it helped explain the violence and grief on all sides when I didn’t continue to practice in that very stifling form of Christianity. But I actually think it was part of a larger experience I couldn’t even see at the time: the struggle to live Christianity in an age where the  Christian worldview, the lived experience of knowing Jesus Christ crucified and risen, is almost completely beyond our grasp.  In a world where Reason of a rather shallow sort reigns over all, where skepticism and irony are the primary modes of discourse, there is little room for any kind of mythic or what I can only call a sacramental reality. What I want to cultivate, and what I feel is very hard to take hold of, is a Christianity with a rich and full mythical dimension.

That is why I am a Catholic– because it is in the context of the Liturgical Year and the Sacraments that the whole story makes sense. It is there that I hope to be informed by a Christian worldview and have a lived Christianity.

I think in this historical moment it is very difficult to think at all about a worldview. In this world where the highest value is “choice” and there is seemingly no agreement even on fundamental values (we all claim the same values but in practice define them so differently that we end up looking at each other in utter confusion), it is hard to know what is gained and lost from generation to generation. And I admit that when I meet older Catholics, as I do often these days, who are fully imbued with faith and lamenting that their children and grandchildren are no longer practicing Catholics, I don’t really understand the language they are speaking when they talk about their faith. I don’t really understand their experience. But, thanks in large part to Chinua Achebe, I do understand their loss.

The jig is up not just for the Africans whose tribal religions and worldviews were wiped out by Christian European Modernity, but for all of us– for the way Christian European Modernity and American Modernity, Western Modernity, what my husband talks about when he talks about Liberalism (which has nothing to do with liberals) has done to take out all belief systems. To flatten reality. To make a faith life difficult and isolated and uncertain and lonely even inside of churches and families.

Perhaps our only chance is writers like Chinua Achebe, who died yesterday, writers who can show us the depth of our changing world. Let us strive to be readers who will not take books like this and say “we are the Colonists” and “they are the natives.” Let us see this is the state of our world and this is all of us– what we have done and what world we all live in. What we have lost and what has fallen apart.

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Vernal Equinox

snowdunes spring 13 2

Hello from the First Day of Spring in Minnesota. We’re having a good old-fashioned winter here, with more snow Monday and more snow on the way and very cold temperatures (single digits) still.

giant snow cake 3-13When it does warm up, the kids get busy and make gigantic snowmen, or snow wedding cakes…

snow dunes spring 2013The sun is putting in its twelve hours regardless of the temperature, so on my way home from work I pass the snow dunes casting long shadows.

 

annie and amy ski 3-13My intrepid sisters-in-law are still breaking trail with their skis, even though the wind has been relentless and drifts things back in place.

So far, I’ve been able to break the drift in the driveway, and it is lovely when the dry snow is blown from the tractor into the air.

But I’m wondering about that Easter egg hunt…

snowy flower garden spring 13

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